So how did it go last month? Were you able to identify that one particular issue (or several) that the Universe was trying to bring to your attention? If not, that's OK. You can trust that when you are ready - it will become very clear. As they say, when the student is ready - the teacher will come. And I have had some wonderful teachers in my lifetime. At the time of the "class", I could not see past my hurt and my anger, however, once I took a step back and assessed what took place at that time in my life - I began to have a new appreciation for that person and the role they played in my emotional development.
So what have I been up to lately? Stretching, growing, learning, loving, living, laughing, dating, eating, cleaning, studying, writing, parenting, you name it - Iíve been doing it. You see, I now recognize that it is the small things that are the most important in life. Things such as true friendships; being honest with yourself and with others, as well as learning how to disappoint another to be true to myself. These are no easy feats, but they are life altering and so necessary to a peace of mind and spirit.
Life has afforded me the opportunity to experience all that I have and still live to tell about it. Let me share something with you - there have been times in my life when I thought that I was enduring the worst thing imaginable. How was I going to make it through? Why did it have to happen to me? Why didn't this person, manager or association treat me the way I thought I deserved? Why wasn't I chosen for "whatever"? Why isn't life fair? Why? Why? Why? I could always ask the question, but until I learned to really sit with myself - through my pain and confusion, I would never find the answer.
I continued to look elsewhere for fulfillment. I filled my life with a busy schedule, sometimes more than one job or activity to run from what it was I needed to do - overachiever at her finest. I continued to hide behind my so-called injustices as a reason for me not being where I wanted to be. I looked to others to help me get there, to carry me emotionally. What I found out the hard way is that until you can truly sit with yourself and accept responsibility for your own disappointment - you will always be disappointed. And I was. That was the one thing that was consistent if nothing else.
What do you think it is that allows one person to breeze through life as though nothing bad ever happens to them? You know, that person at work who is always happy. No matter what happens, she is always positive. What is it that allows her to be that way when there are others who behave as "reactive-combative-medicated fools"? What sets her apart? Is she on medication, is she high on drugs or could she simply be high on the reality that she can design her own life? What do you think?
I love watching movies for the metaphysical content. One of my all-time favorite movies is The Matrix (the first one). My favorite scene is when Neo is brought back from going inside the Matrix (a computer program set up to control humans) and he opens his eyes. He looks at Morpheous and questions, "Why do my eyes hurt?" and Morpheous looks back at him and replies, "Because you've never used them before." I almost fell out of my seat. This is how the majority of us go through life, blinded by society, the system and by the programming we have received along our life's journey, causing us to repeat the same unhealthy patterns over and over again.
When you recognize that you determine your own reality, then your world changes. You begin to see the "faulty programming" at work. It is not that you don't have the same challenges as others; it is that your perception of those challenges has changed, freeing your mind and your spirit to enjoy life. Next time something happens that throws you for a loop, try to look at it with a positive attitude. Watch and feel the difference. But beware, those around you who are content in the Matrix will undoubtedly try to pull you back in - DON'T DO IT!!!!!
Happy New Year everyone - may your New Year be filled with a new outlook on life, the release of your mind and your emotions from the bondage of your past and plenty of blessings and inner peace.